Friday, December 31, 2010

Sometime I need it. MADNESS



Salam princes and princess.


My emotion is at the worst level ever. I don’t know what happen to me and why my mood suddenly changed. Usually I am not like this. I am a type of person who is very confident with myself, enthusiasm, energetic, talkative, very positive, professional, naughty and so on so force. But it changes drastically this week. Something is wrong with me. 

I tried everything to cope with this matter but at last I meet the dead end. I am so confuse. I never have been like this before. My classmate noticed about these changes and they asked me to tell them. I said, nope, nothing wrong with me and I am fine. I really appreciate you guys for being very good friends of mine. I love you guys. Credits to Jailson, K, Jue, Azie, Bayek, Shaz and Mia. Thank you for your concern babeh. 

I read books, I went window shopping, I went to cinema, I shopped, I went mingle everyday and so on. But still I feel very tired, very weak and angry. The only thing that I still have is my confident. I am not afraid to anything. But confident alone is not enough, I need my energy back. Owh my strength, where are you? I miss you. I really need to energize back my energy to get back the original Asraf Arshad.
I am sick with myself. Maybe I should practice back my martial arts. I used to silat with my friends. By punching other people face maybe I can gain my energy back. I feel strong when I hit others with my superb punch .hahhah It is a true fact that we will feel great and strong when we are mad. Or maybe I need to cry just to flush out my sick emotion? Will it works? I don’t know but I can give it a try .haha

Anyway, this matter will end soon. Don’t worry be happy.
My last entry for 2010. I just came back from shopping and my mood is happy. I am okay again. Last wish, bye 2010 and all the best for 2011.

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