Thursday, January 6, 2011

What I did wrong??

Salam salam salam.

What I did wrong this time? I realized from previous semester until now I changed a lot. The changes that i made suppose to be from good to excellent. But it is vice versa. I read lots of books, I made lots of friends, i joined this and that and I scored in my subject. But somehow there are still things that I cannot achieve even doe I worked really hard on it. What should I do next?

The reason why I want to do lots of things just to show that I am capable in doing things and different from others. Of course the other reason is to gain experience. I already achieved so many things but I still feel very weak. I am so down and I feel like everything that i learned is useless. How should I cope with this matter?

Friends of mine said, acab try harder. Omg I tried everything, every strength that I have, I used it all until nothing left inside. My other friend said, I am super confident with myself and that is why I underestimate that matter. On second thought, yeahh I think I agreed with this fellow. I feel so regret due to my stupidity. It is very true that we can only do the planning but Allah decide it. I planned very well just to face you. But at the end, I failed by following my standard. I expect I can do better and even greater than ever. I always want to maintain at the top and don't want drown to the bottom. They said, life is a cycle,sometime you go up and sometime you go down. Serious guys, I am starting to get tired of everything. How to cope with this attitude? hermm

Now I am at bottom of the sea. Cooling myself with the blue cold water. hahaha
That is life, sometime things will never be as we expected.
If you cannot handle me at my worst time, you don't deserve me when I am at my best time. You really don't deserve it. Friends suppose to support each other by giving motivation and so on so force. You are one of my best friend and why the fish you make me feel very bad when I am really down instant of supporting me? 2 chances have been given, seriously if you do it again I will terminate you from my friend list? Who? You!! yes you. I will do the same thing to you, squeeze and push you down when the time you need me the most. By the time you realized I am avoiding you, It will be too late to ask for my forgiveness.

Winning You by Heart

Salam Malaysia.

Actually I am very tired and got no ideas. But because I am a problem solver. I solve problems. That what I do best. So I decided to write something to avoid my boredom. The best topic which relates to my life currently is love. hehehe love. Smile is my strength and my assets. Smile make me look young..hehe

Everything is starting to turn upside down. My life is great and insyallah it will greater in the future. I love my friends. They really are fun and sincere. I am really enjoying my life now even though sometime they were some arguments with them. Friends, If problem occurs between you and your friends, take it nice and slow. Solve with gently and be professional. If you love your friends, treat them how they suppose to be treated. Enough about friends. ngeee

It is not the time, it is not now. Somewhere in the future SHE will appear. She does not exist in my life for this time being. Not yet. SHE is love.

Love is commitment, love is sincere and love is loyalty. These are how I define love. I am not easy to fall in love and it takes time lot and lot and lots of time to do so. I am very confused with myself in choosing love. I do not know what type of women I want. I really do not know. I think this happen because I am not ready to give commitment to anyone yet. So I have chosen to wait. Yeayhh!!!! For me waiting is a journey and I like journey because full of challenges. Challenges make me feel alive. Wahh!

You, yes u.. There is no harm in trying to win your heart; even I know I will be rejected... haha
Yeah I really do mean it. If I found you I will never stop. Reject me 100 times or 1000 times, I will never change my decision.  hehe..
owh yeah, I prefer to be friend for a period of time first. not just jump to a serious relationship.

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